Slow Rot Holy Heat

proportions

Small
Insignificant
Connected

A strand knotted inside another,
and another,
unfurling without end.

So vast I lose myself in it.
So incomprehensible
that waking life feels like a hallucination
with a schedule.

The little goals we set—
measured hopes—
dwarfed beneath what pulses just beyond reach.

Sometimes I catch myself in a mirror
and forget what year it is.
Little dust mote,
shape-shifter as the light hits.

What I was,
and whatever I’ll become—
neither wants to explain itself.

As Ram Dass says:
Ah well